Not another early in time, this time to shadow the SDO!
Super unlucky, this whole week already arrowed for every extra work possible. Flag & Ration, SDO, Ops A, Stats Board (totally not under my job scope), take photos of instructor, treasury updates and chasing of debts, mess takeover.
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I'm so freaking bored here, I didn't bring anything useful and out of a/c context to read! My brain is detoriating. If I would to return to university anytime (touch wood), I'll surely die.
Today I lost A$230 at poker. First was drinking, now gambling, next smoking? What the hell am I turning to? And what's with the vulgarities? Lost count. Back to square zero, or is it already in the negatives?
Chinese New Year... Last year I spent it alone at home, this year I'm going spend it in a foreign country. No goodies, no red packets, no family & relatives, no decorations, no house cleaning, no friends that mean alot to me, no nothing.
So much to study, learn & memorise, So little time, morale, motivation and determination. Please put me quickly with my one true love, soar me up the skies where I sorely miss being in and lift my spirits as high as my throttle and old dying engine can take me to.
My friend wrecked one of my treasured birthday gifts I received back in jc2, not only does the person mean so much but also the gift. So painful... Wish I had not entrusted that with him...
Sigh... Hiaz...
Anyway, if I was still NSF, I would already ORD-ed. Damn...
2:08 am;